It takes an absurd amount of courage to see this life through.
....Non stop consciousness, minus the distractions.
Ever try it?


Nothing is more useful in life than learning how to be alone.
It might make you sick, it might drive you mad,
But the upkeep of personal responsibility is very much a solo undertaking.


I believe in the necessity of learning how to become a self-contained unit.
I don't seek validation from bourgeois communities.


The Steppenwolf isn't afraid of me.
Loosen up, and let me playfully guide you through hell.

Harry's laughing it up with The Immortals.
(I can't say the same for myself though.)


Either you know about the struggle,
or you don't.

I'm 40 years old. I have nothing left to say!

I was born old. I figured it out by the time I was 5.


Meanwhile, it's a brand new day for The Elect and The Damned.
We're living in an oligarchy people!
Woman's search for meaning continues.


I'm grieving the loss of our entire ecosystem.
And hey have you noticed we're all getting older?

Making art is pretty pointless if you're not getting paid for it.
How many ways can you spell diminishing returns?

Yes, I have faced many developmental challenges over the years,
(I was basically robbed of a stable childhood and proper upbringing.)
OOPS! I'm not a victim!
And my parents did the best they could with the tools that they had.

No, I don't feel guilty, embarrassed, or ashamed that I never found a way
to adapt to such a cruel and unjust world.
I never was a joiner.


The feral nature of the loner can't be altered or consoled.

And yet, unbearable compassion is all that remains.
What a psychedelic nightmare this life is.

This website is a relic,
I no longer have the energy or motivation to document the collapse of civilization.

I learned about class consciousness the moment that I took an exit from mother's womb.
There are no more lessons to be learned.



(I'm well versed in death awareness.)



After all this time in the samsara vortex,
I wait for death, as others buffer with the denial of death.
Let the crass illusion of this world fall apart:):):)!


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